Results. 01/11/05
I want the things I put effort into to show positive results, that's what I've been trying to say. I often feel like I'm attempting to dig a hole to China with a teaspoon.
As far as finding a new job: You would think that just the law of averages, simple odds, would result in something by now. Searching the online job listings and newspaper classifieds at several sites, checking in at least 3 times a week, sending out 2 resumes a week, would have gotten me more than one interview in 6 months. But no.
Hard to hang in there and keep pushing myself. I feel like a hamster running determinedly forward, and am surprised when I triumphantly spring off of the little wheel, thinking I must have "arrived" at my goal, or at least gotten somewhere, only to find I'm right where I started, so I curl up in a little ball in the corner of my cage and pull the wood shavings over my head and crawl out only now and then to investigate the contents of the food dish.
